Writer's Block

I've been wanting to start up my blog again. I wanted to come back with a bang. I wanted to create a post that would have people exclaim, "my God. I've missed Mel's blog!"

I started a few posts and then stopped half way through. They're saved as drafts.

I can't seem to think up an idea... something to get my fingers typing insanely fast upon my keys like they once did when I was on a role. I can't seem to think of clever lines or intriguing ideas that literally get my heart racing.

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So here I sit in my bed. Staring blankly at the screen and occasionally at my surroundings without a single idea.

I suppose much like other events in life, a blog needs coaxing. It needs inspiration. I feel I need to get some practice in before really writing a great post. This saddens me because I feel there once was a time when I was on a role. There was a time when I could write a post every day.

I feel like I'm back at the beginning and I need to start all over again. Sort of like those people who start working out all the time... lose a bunch of weight... feel great about themselves and then the holidays hit... the holidays turn into a few extra months and BAM. They're back at the beginning. Going back to the gym feels bitter sweet. Good to be back. But they know that they appear as if they've never stepped foot in a gym before. But they have. They have worked out here before. They have made a difference. It's just a matter of reconnecting with that person. Reconnecting with that devotion and passion.

I'm not saying I'm not enjoying writing this again. I just need to rediscover my rhythm.

I need to get back in touch with my creative side. I need to exercise and just write.

So here it is. My first blog post of 2012. It's not fantastic but it's a start. And I think that's all I need for now.

I'm starting to run.

Double Standard

Just getting this out here before more than one person reads my last blog... but I just posted it this morning so I should have a few days ... However....

One of my best friends, Danielle pointed out to me that my last blog (Lady Like) was well-written, she got/understood the message but she brought up a good point: I've definitely made it seem as though there's a double standard.

Hmm... I will agree with her. There are many double standards in this day and age - far less than there were decades ago, but nevertheless they still exist.

There are certainly double standards that benefit or limit both males and females and while we can imagine living in a "perfect world" where double standards don't exist I suppose we must simply grin and bare it in the meantime.

One may ask me: so why can't men be GENTLEMEN when it comes to sleeping around? Why is it just up to women to be LADIES? Hmm... should I use what seems to be an obvious double standard to answer this question?

Women are smarter?

No, I won't. I suppose I'll simple say: to each his (or indeed, her) own.

Perhaps I expect too much from women and that could be a double standard against men that I should be working on getting out of my head.

Until next time, stay classy San Francisco.

(Pun intended on closing line)

Welcome Back

While I have quite a few passions and hobbies, two of my most darling passions are writing and video-making.

Last year I wrote approximately 80 blog entries which mostly involved me procrastinating late at night and wanting to share what was on my mind with the world; with cyberspace; with anyone who would listen really.

I decided then to stop writing for a while when I finished school for the summer and focus only on my video-making fun. I strongly encourage you to check out my channel.

[ Insert shameless self-promotion here: www.youtube.com/meltab27 ]

I will continue to make my videos as they are my most beloved fascination at this point but I have truly missed the pleasure and rush I also get from writing on my dear old blog.

So here we go. Cheers to another school year. Another late night. Another adventure. Another story. Another thought. Another question. Another answer.

Another blog entry.