Perfect Summary

"I also will not discuss here all the reasons why I did still want to be his wife, or all his wonderfulness, or why I loved him and why I had married him and why I was unable to imagine life without him. I won't open any of that.

Let it be sufficient to say that, on this night, he was still my lighthouse and my albatross in equal measure.

The only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying; the only thing more impossible than staying was leaving. I didn't want to destroy anything or anybody. I just wanted to slip quietly out the back door, without causing any fuss or consequences, and then not stop running until I reached Greenland."

- Eat, Pray, Love [novel]

Perfectly describing something that was too difficult to put in words at a time.